Fear not, I won't require your services every night.
[He's sure she's found other things to occupy her evenings. What he isn't sure of is how to feel when his mind tries to fill in those dark gaps with glimpses of imagined trysts. Once — a year ago, before he ever came here — a small foolish part of him almost believed it could be possible, if laughably improbable, that she might see him as something more than a king to serve or even a friend to lean into as they marched endlessly forward.
But now, the distance she's kept makes it sharply clear that it might as well be impossible.]
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Fear not, I won't require your services every night.
[He's sure she's found other things to occupy her evenings. What he isn't sure of is how to feel when his mind tries to fill in those dark gaps with glimpses of imagined trysts. Once — a year ago, before he ever came here — a small foolish part of him almost believed it could be possible, if laughably improbable, that she might see him as something more than a king to serve or even a friend to lean into as they marched endlessly forward.
But now, the distance she's kept makes it sharply clear that it might as well be impossible.]