The difference is I have learned from my mistakes. You are so eager to run toward them and commit them again.
For a woman who claims she is no saint, you certainly love to play the part of the martyr. Did no one tell you that you have to be selfless to be a martyr? Because all I hear is the lamenting of a selfish child, with no regard for anyone or anything other than her own pain.
Your petty jealousy is disgusting. Over an event that has not happened for me, no less. That will never happen. At least you are still so painfully transparent. Nikolai's truest love has been and always will be Ravka. What you are saying is an impossibility.
What friends you must have thought we were, Starkov, for you to naturally assume I was ushering you toward death. Did you ever stop to ask Nikolai what the truth was? Did you ever stop to ask me? Would you have believed me, if I told you that your power was lost? That your tracker was the one you were meant to marry? Don't fool us both by saying yes. We know that would be a lie, too. You didn't ask because you didn't care to hear the truth. You wanted the life you lead now to be the truth.
It is not my fault you both decided to live in your fantasies rather than address your reality. You want the truth, then here it is: you wanted to live in that lie, Alina. And now you must deal with the consequences. You and Nikolai brought this mess on yourselves. Not me. Not Aleksander, much as I loathe giving him any credit at all.
What do you hope to accomplish here? Blaming me for both yours and Nikolai's sins? Rallying against me out of spite because you long for the future you claim I have? Leave me out of it. My future, whatever it may be, is no longer your concern.
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For a woman who claims she is no saint, you certainly love to play the part of the martyr.
Did no one tell you that you have to be selfless to be a martyr?
Because all I hear is the lamenting of a selfish child, with no regard for anyone or anything other than her own pain.
Your petty jealousy is disgusting. Over an event that has not happened for me, no less. That will never happen.
At least you are still so painfully transparent.
Nikolai's truest love has been and always will be Ravka. What you are saying is an impossibility.
What friends you must have thought we were, Starkov, for you to naturally assume I was ushering you toward death.
Did you ever stop to ask Nikolai what the truth was? Did you ever stop to ask me?
Would you have believed me, if I told you that your power was lost?
That your tracker was the one you were meant to marry?
Don't fool us both by saying yes. We know that would be a lie, too.
You didn't ask because you didn't care to hear the truth. You wanted the life you lead now to be the truth.
It is not my fault you both decided to live in your fantasies rather than address your reality.
You want the truth, then here it is: you wanted to live in that lie, Alina. And now you must deal with the consequences.
You and Nikolai brought this mess on yourselves.
Not me. Not Aleksander, much as I loathe giving him any credit at all.
What do you hope to accomplish here? Blaming me for both yours and Nikolai's sins?
Rallying against me out of spite because you long for the future you claim I have?
Leave me out of it. My future, whatever it may be, is no longer your concern.